that was full of suspense right?

so 5 months....

i thought i'd...you know...be suspenseful...i know you were all waiting on the edge of your seats for me to post something...

okay. i'm lying. i'm really just bad at this whole thing of recording things and remembering things...ask my wife. she knows.

so i've decided to start doing this whole blog thing every sunday. i originally thought...oh i'll just blog when i feel like blogging and it'll be good. everyone will be able to delve into my life and they'll love me because i'm so awesome and funny...

and then i didn't write anything for 5 months.

this is why setting a time...well at least a day...will be helpful...

because let's face it. if i just do it when i feel like it, i'll end up playing mariokart or writing some song or some paper or eating hot dogs or something like that.

so anyway.

once upon a time, i thought, once this marching band thing is over, i'll have more time... and then i was wrong. the end.

my schedule is poop. enough there.

teachergirl and i are expecting a baby girl pretty soon though. you all probably know that already though since you probably read her blog too...

i'm excited about it though.

i don't think i'm that nervous about having her.

i know what you're thinking...that's because you don't have to do anything because the birthing is taken care of by nature and the unequaled pain of your beloved spouse...

while you are right, i meant about having her here. most are nervous that they won't know what to do. while there's a little of that, i think it's minimal.

I'm mostly just in awe of how baby "M" will know nothing. we will have to teach her everything! she won't even know that going to the bathroom on yourself is nasty. she won't even know what up is. it's just amazing. and it's up to us.

I'm really excited to meet her. I wonder what her personality will be like. will she be chill? or high strung? or a thinker? or a talker? will she be sassy like her mom? will she have my unbelievable charm and charisma? my overwhelming humility? will she be brave? will she be doubting? will she be a friend to everyone?

I don't know. I just know that i'm in amazement at how much trust God has in me. He trusts me to be the father of one of His precious daughters. He trusts me to teach her what is right. He trusts me to take care of her. He trusts me to love her and to teach her about His love through that.

i do know one thing though. i know that i love her. i don't know her, but i do. i know that i'm going to do whatever i can to make sure that she has everything...even if that means that i don't give her stuff because i know that will be part of it. i know that i love that she kicks when i sing or when i read a book to her. i know she kicks when she hears a trumpet or an organ. whether she likes it or not...we'll see.

I know that she's lucky to have such a wonderful mom as an example of a virtuous woman. i pray that she can be like her. i hope she is fun like her. i hope she is righteous like her. i hope she serves others like her. i hope she is kind like her. i hope she's smart like her.

in short, if she's like her mom, me and teachergirl did pretty good.