sunday plus

i didn't write last week because i was out of town playing the piano at a friend's mom's wedding. it was pretty good. i spent a lot of time at their house playing their piano. i was glad to do it because i love them... and got to play whatever i wanted. how can you beat that?

well...i'll tell ya.

this weekend was general conference. it was awesome as usual. i love hearing general conference. every time i listen to the prophets and apostles, i learn something new or am told something that i need to be doing.

usually i feel a little bad to see how much i should be doing after listening to them. i feel like...yeah i wasn't even close... i kinda feel like the kid at the spelling bee that was using numbers and stuff. you know the kid i'm talking about...

another of the surprising things is that most of the stuff i learn that i need to do is not in what they say. they are the leaders put in place by Him to teach us. their speaking brings the spirit and that is what teaches me.

the other thing i love about the spirit of general conference is how it calms me. it helps me to forget about the things that I have to do. it helps me forget my worry about school and homework and everything and just be a non-stressed and calm, wonderful me.

and i'm kinda awesome.

something else that i notice is that when i can forget about all the stuff i have on the plate, and the spirit drives away the stupid thoughts i might have, i'm left thinking of what is most important to me. i'm left with what my mind would think and my heart would desire without all the distraction. that's pretty cool.

when this happens, i feel in love with my wife. i feel more in love with her than ever. and the cool thing is that it doesn't go down until the next time. i just keep falling for her more every day. i don't know how that happens. i just know i've gotten to the point where i don't think it's even possible for me to love her any more than i do more than a couple times...and every time, i love her more the next day. the presence of the spirit just gives it an extra kick.

so the moral is people, be where the spirit is. when you seek it, good things happen.

that was full of suspense right?

so 5 months....

i thought i'd...you know...be suspenseful...i know you were all waiting on the edge of your seats for me to post something...

okay. i'm lying. i'm really just bad at this whole thing of recording things and remembering things...ask my wife. she knows.

so i've decided to start doing this whole blog thing every sunday. i originally thought...oh i'll just blog when i feel like blogging and it'll be good. everyone will be able to delve into my life and they'll love me because i'm so awesome and funny...

and then i didn't write anything for 5 months.

this is why setting a time...well at least a day...will be helpful...

because let's face it. if i just do it when i feel like it, i'll end up playing mariokart or writing some song or some paper or eating hot dogs or something like that.

so anyway.

once upon a time, i thought, once this marching band thing is over, i'll have more time... and then i was wrong. the end.

my schedule is poop. enough there.

teachergirl and i are expecting a baby girl pretty soon though. you all probably know that already though since you probably read her blog too...

i'm excited about it though.

i don't think i'm that nervous about having her.

i know what you're thinking...that's because you don't have to do anything because the birthing is taken care of by nature and the unequaled pain of your beloved spouse...

while you are right, i meant about having her here. most are nervous that they won't know what to do. while there's a little of that, i think it's minimal.

I'm mostly just in awe of how baby "M" will know nothing. we will have to teach her everything! she won't even know that going to the bathroom on yourself is nasty. she won't even know what up is. it's just amazing. and it's up to us.

I'm really excited to meet her. I wonder what her personality will be like. will she be chill? or high strung? or a thinker? or a talker? will she be sassy like her mom? will she have my unbelievable charm and charisma? my overwhelming humility? will she be brave? will she be doubting? will she be a friend to everyone?

I don't know. I just know that i'm in amazement at how much trust God has in me. He trusts me to be the father of one of His precious daughters. He trusts me to teach her what is right. He trusts me to take care of her. He trusts me to love her and to teach her about His love through that.

i do know one thing though. i know that i love her. i don't know her, but i do. i know that i'm going to do whatever i can to make sure that she has everything...even if that means that i don't give her stuff because i know that will be part of it. i know that i love that she kicks when i sing or when i read a book to her. i know she kicks when she hears a trumpet or an organ. whether she likes it or not...we'll see.

I know that she's lucky to have such a wonderful mom as an example of a virtuous woman. i pray that she can be like her. i hope she is fun like her. i hope she is righteous like her. i hope she serves others like her. i hope she is kind like her. i hope she's smart like her.

in short, if she's like her mom, me and teachergirl did pretty good.