i love my wife...

that's really all i wanted to say. she's asleep right now and i don't want to wake her...but i wanted to say i love her. dating and marrying her was one of the best things i've ever done in my life. lucky for me, she thinks so to. also lucky for me, it's a marriage for eternity. no till death do us part stuff. this is the good kind. performed by the priesthood and sealed by the Holy Spirit of promise. she's my favorite person. i don't know what i would do without her. the end.

the slotted spoon won't hold much soup, but if you try...you can catch the potato...

so...i love God by the way...

yeah. it's true. i want to do what He wants me to. i pray to know what that is. i feel like i get the same answer most of the time. also, really want to do it too.

i also feel though, and everyone who knows me can back me up here, that i'm really distractable.

i'm kinda like a kid in that way. i'm easily amused. that's good if you're just trying to not be bored. especially at work. today at work i actually practiced my chord choices for each base note in a scale...you know...for harmonic dictation...and also flicked coins into a cup... this kind of thing is really helpful for getting through the 5 hour days there.

it's not so good however for doing specific things you need to do.

i think it's because i started leaving my planner at home when i went to work. i WAS taking it to work everyday just to plan a list for that day and other days of the week. i stopped because we were moving and there was nothing to plan. i was just to unpack. nothing that needed to be written down.

anyway...this "distractability" and not bringing my planner makes me forget things. even the important things. and because i forget, i feel like i am the worst follower ever. i feel like i give a luke warm effort...and that doesn't feel to good. i feel like: "He's only been asking me to do one thing (mostly...you know other than keep the commandments and all...) for a while...and i still haven't done it.

i'm going to try really hard to remember tomorrow to do it.

in fact...can you hold on a minute? of course you can. thanks.

i just had to go get my planner and put it int the middle of the floor to remember to take it with me in the morning. that'll help for sure.

i just feel like a let down to Heavenly Father. i know he doesn't think i'm not good enough. that's not how he works. he wants for us only to realize of how much worth we are...and then act like it.

i also feel like there's more He wants me to do...but why would he give me more if i can't do what i got?

this thinking came to me tonight because i was wondering tonight why i feel like He's not giving me more direct instruction. it could be because he thinks i'm doing good and trusts my judgment and is letting me just do it...or it could be because i'm already not doing the stuff He already told me what to do. there's a way to find out...and i think i'm gunna try it.

i feel like i'm just rambling now... and i probably am... sorry.

i'm just going to try to do better.

i guess if i want people to read this, i should write regularly...

so...as i've said before, my work is pretty boring. today, however, i had something kind of interesting happen. i won't be specific because of the whole confidentiality thing...but i was talking to this lady on the phone (because that's what i do) and she had a complaint. i understood. i knew where she was coming from. i would even say that i agreed with her if what she thought happened really did. i doubt it...but that's beside the point.

she complained...repeating herself...many times...about 1 or 2 things...FOR 35 MINUTES STRAIGHT!!!

i don't even think breathed but twice. she didn't let me talk. she didn't even actually give me the information i needed to help and actually make a difference. she just kept going, and going in a loop...for 35 minutes.

is this necessary?

the answer is no. but i'm sure you know that because you're smart people. i can see if she was letting me try to get the info and do something about it... or if we were having a discussion trying to calm her down...but it was a monologue of epic proportions. she just kept saying how wrong i was and what i should have done...even though it was the first time i've spoken to her. i didn't take offense or anything. i thought it was kind of funny after about 10 minutes.

it actually reminded me of my missionary days. i'm sure all you proselytizing missionaries know what i mean. when you knock on a door and they just start going off about how wrong you are and all the horrible things you've done and how their church is right and yours is not. those doors were more sad than funny though because they were so closed minded and hard hearted. this phone call was funny though.

so if you have a complaint with a company, here's what i suggest...

A. don't give a 35 minute monologue

2. let them help you. let them talk some too. they want to help you. they probably have nothing more exciting to do if they're in a call center.

D. call someone who's not me.

thanks.

so...a couple weeks ago, my wife, teachergirl, looked up this thing online that was like your work out type by your zodiac sign. it said that since i'm a scorpio, that i'm more likely to get good work outs and be motivated to do them if it's training for something specific. it suggested something like a triathlon or something like that. you know what?

it was right.

i remembered that there's a rugby club a the school i'm going to start attending in the fall. i also know, from spending time in Australia, that rugby is a pretty physically demanding sport. it's 40 minute halves and there's no stopping in between plays like football. there's no subs...unless you're injured or bleeding. there's no pads-accept a mouth guard and a cup. it's kinda tough.

"rugby is a beastly sport played by gentlemen..."

i thought hey...i'm gentlemanly in some form. i'll train for playing rugby in the spring.

so i've been running a lot more than i have before. since i didn't really run at all...if possible. i didn't like running for running's sake. i mean...i played soccer and stuff in the past. i liked that because i was chasing the ball and stopping the forwards and all that jazz. i didn't like just running for the fun of it. to my amazement, since i decided to train and get my stamina for rugby, it's been much easier than i thought.

i thought it would take a while to get into it. i'm so excited that it's been much quicker than i thought. today i ran a 10 minute mile, walked a while a ran another mile. this was all while teachergirl was in a mixed martial arts exercise class...yeah, she's hard out too. don't mess with her.

i mostly just wanted to say that i'm doing much better in the running department than i ever thought. granted, i was running on a treadmill and not on the normal ground. it is a little easier that way because you're not actually propelling yourself. you're just holding yourself up. i'm still happy about it though. hopefully, i'll be ready when it comes.

NEWS FLASH!

you can't search for living people.

how am i supposed to find my ancestors if i can't even find the family i know?

i mean...doesn't that make sense?

i guess it also makes sense that i should be able to fill out my own pedigree chart by typing more than my name and birth date.

man i'm lazy.

my turn...

so...i guess tonight is the night for musicboy to not be able to get to sleep. that's why i'm here.

at church today, we were talking about the new.familysearch.org thing. it sounded really cool. it's a family history site. so i though...since i'm still up and not tired...i might as well give it a try.

so i registered...

and then i felt like an idiot.

first of all, all that came up was me and teachergirl when i started. i tried searching for my parents and they weren't in there. i don't know their birth dates. i can't find them. so i added them to the system. what's the point though?...i only know their names and birthday. no year. i'm up on things as you can tell.

i thought maybe since my grandma has used one of the LDS family history sites that the stuff she did would be in there. it wasn't that easy. i decided i'm not good at this. i'll try again another time...

if any of you have some experience with this, feel free to share your fountains of knowledge with me. i'm sure you've got water to spare. just some advice or opinion would be welcomed too.